Research

I have been searching out a lot of blogs that will give me ideas about things I could really do to help organize my home.  I have a lot of really excellent ideas, now all I need is the money to buy the pieces I need. I am going to try to re-purpose a lot of things I already have. I am also going to work on decluttering our home. We have so much extra stuff, we have to get rid of a lot of it! I have started on my daily chores, but haven't gotten past the dishwasher. I will keep you posted on my organizational journey.

My Teeth

I have been having problems with my teeth lately. I finally broke down and went to the dentist. I have to get 5 fillings and get my wisdom teeth pulled. My very first visit they pulled one infected wisdom tooth and filled a tooth with a bad cavity. Today I had my second visit. They pulled another tooth and filled the rest of the cavities. I was supposed to get all three teeth pulled, but I got sick. :( So, I go back next Wednesday to get the rest pulled. I guess, if nothing else, it is a good diet plan! Sore mouth means less food!
The cleaning I did this weekend has worn off, but Tim is motivated to help me I think. I have found some ideas online on how to get started. I am hoping anyone who reads my blog will help keep me motivated as well. I start back to school next week, so I feel like I have to get my ducks in a row by then.
On the genealogy front, I signed up for an online class through Ancestry.com. It is the beginning of Sept. I am really excited to learn more about finding my past, as well as Tim's. I hope to have an awesome family history to pass on to my children one day.

Big News!

I was actually productive yesterday and today! I have the living room and kitchen cleaned, swept and vacuumed. Today I am working on laundry, and the kids rooms. And then Monday I am going to work on Tim and I's room. I am trying to reduce the chaos in my home which will hopefully reduce the chaos in mine and CT's minds.
On the big news front, I have also lost 5 pounds! WOOT!
Little Bit starts school Wednesday, CT starts the next Monday and I start that Thursday. JT will be in the 1 year old room at his day care. That makes me a little sad. He is getting so big!

Seriously, I will get better at this.

I have every intention of blogging on a weekly basis, however I can always find a reason not to. I hate having people read what I write. I am afraid of people judging my writing ability, which is not all that great. However, I need to get over that fear and just get my feelings put down. Its not like anyone reads this anyway. And if you are reading it, I'm so sorry!
I want to start incorporating my family history search into my blog as well as my attempts to become a better wife, mother and woman. I am attempting to implement a lot of new ideas and practices into my life. I am starting with attending church this Sunday with my dear friend Connie and her 4 kids, fiance, step-daughter and step-granddaughter. Along with me and my three kids, this should be quite the adventure! However, this will feed my mind and my soul and hopefully help me to get into a better frame of mind to become the wife and mother I am meant to be. I will keep ya'll posted on my journey. Any helpful hints and tidbits are greatly appreciated.

Feeling like a cow...

A milk cow, not the fat kind. Although, that too. I am sitting here, pumping, because now that I started to wean Jayce, he now longer wants to nurse unless it is 3 am. I am trying to get my game face on and be able to get my homework and housework done and still spend time with the kids. However, by the time I get homework and/or housework done, there is no time to be spent with the kids. If I take the time to spend quality time with the kids, then I cannot get my homework or housework done. And now I feel like I am wasting my time pumping when I should be doing homework or emptying the dishwasher. I have not figured out how to balance this life I have chosen.

Same place, different time

So, its been almost a year since I blogged, because my life is just more of the same. Tonight I am sitting here, waiting on my husband who was leaving the bar at 10:30. It is now 1:18 and I haven't heard from him since. I feel so lonely in my marriage. He rarely goes out, but when he does, he refuses to come home. It really make me wonder where he really wants to be. Even when he is home, he is drinking and ignoring me. I don't remember the last time we had a real conversation.
Maybe I am just having a pity party, I don't know. But, to me, this is not how a marriage is supposed to feel.

Another lonely night

So, here I am sitting at home, watching my husband and three of his friends playing cards. The babies are trying desperately to play with their daddy. I spent the day laying around, just maintaining my house, did laundry, dishwasher, put supper in the crock pot. However, my house seems to have exploded. My husband won't put his stuff away, and my kids keep getting stuff out. At least now they have someplace to put their stuff when they are done playing! It is only 5:15 and I want to put the babies in their room with a movie and go to bed. Instead, I am stuck, refreeing my husbands card game. I have to go figure out something to feed the babies, and a way to feed them w/o the kitchen table.